yes, I realized that........

I don't know when I realized that I ve been falling in love with you, ya everything's just go. I didn't know that everything was so different. You change my world. I don't know what is ma feeling to you but honestly I'm got jealous when I saw you with the other girl. I'm jealous. I'm so afraid that I will lost you. Is it what we called love? I don't know. I just do not know what I'm feelin right now. Everything mix like all in one. Random feeling. Hate,love,true friendship, mad, happy, yaa everything. I just realize I am afraid to lose you. Yaa since we know each others, there is something missing when you not here with me. I just miss youu so, please don't change I miss you. I miss your flat face but always makes me smiling. I miss your Krik humour but always make me laugh. I miss that you always being there for me. I miss that you always come near me that can change my whole world. HEY IM SORRY I REALIZE THAT I LOVE YOU. I just can't lie to my self. I'm so sorry but please don't changed. One day I just want to meet you and said I've been waiting to meet you and remember you that ya he is one of my true friend!!! Someone that always care of me but always look sweet, your awkward laugh but always heat me,your flat close observation that I miss. I always happy when you near me,I always wanna accompany you when you're alone,I wanna hug you tight when you broken,I'm sorry that I always lied to my self but absolutely I want you to always being there for me....

ONLY GOD KNOWS!

Hey, Blogwalkers 

i wanna share something good and its based in my true daily-life so on, 

jadi dulu pas kelas 7 gue punya pengalaman jadi di 199 adain tes buat masuk bilingual gitu dan gue ikut tes itu dan pada saat itu gue belum berhasil buat masuk kelas itu padahaal gue pengen bangeeet. nah dari situ gue punya prinsip walaupun gak masuk bilingual gue mesti jadi yang terbaik di kelas gue nanti dan syukur alhamdulillah gue berhasil buat dapet itu yaa pada saat itu gue udah ga berimpian buat masuk kelas bilingual lagi, tapi..... pada saat kenaikan kelas 8 gue masuk kelas 96 yaitu 9 bilingual. yang sejujurnya pada saat itu gue sama sekali ga pengen masuk situ bahkaan gue nangis gue masuk 96. banyak alesan yang bikin gue gamau masuk sana pertama nih kelas 8 gue jarang belajar belajar yaa pas ulangan aja tapi alhamdulillah masih dikasi kesempatan buat pertahanin itu peringkat. dan sekarang gue sadaaaar banget tuhan masukkin gue ke 96 itu biar gue belajar biar gue gaikut ikutan temen temen gue yang lain biar gue bener bener percaya sama apa yang udah tuhan kasih, belajar buat nentuin hidup gue.  gue bersyukur masuk 96 yaa walaupun  gue harus pisah sama anak 83 dan tanpa gue sadari tuhan ngasih gue jalan buat wujudin mimpi gue dulu, allah ngasih jalan bahkan satu hal yang gapernah gue sangka dengan cara kaya gini, tuhan selalu ngasih jalan buat hambanya yang sungguh sunngguh inget yaa. tuhan ngewujudin mimpi gue bahkan menggunakan cara yang sama sekali gue sangka. YES. MAYBE GOD NOT GIVE WHAT WE WANT, BUT BELIEVE GOD KNOWS WHAT WE NEED! SO KEEP BELIEV'IN GOD YA!